RAMLA BAY

I just love going there. Winter , Summer , Spring & heck even Autumn :)

love love love, its so relaxing. Its beautiful and the fact that you can only see beach,sand,boats and greenery when you are there, in my opinion makes it one of the top beaches in the world.

I went there yesterday with one of my best friends and we had a blasttt :) not to mention that I got super sun burnt !

so, if you are a tourist visiting the Maltese islands make sure to visit Ramla bay in Gozo :D

What is with me and sad posts latelty??

I promise you, Ill try to quit with the sad themed posts!

This is a poem I wrote about 5 years back now.. Im sure all of you have a loved one or have known someone who passed away to cancer... Sadly I have had 2 people close to me who passed away to cancer..

I wrote this with inspiration to keep awareness that we all need to donate money and pray to god for the cure!

xx

I told you mom
I told you I wouldn’t be alright
I always knew I’d end up dieing
Although I did my best to keep up this fight

I can feel it mom
It’s getting harder as I try to breath
It’s getting all blurry.. even harder for me to see
Im wishing dieing could be painless… like going in a deep sleep.

I wish this on no one mommy
It’s so hard, having to leave
There is so much I will miss
Like my boyfriend giving me his last kiss

Why are you crying mommy?
Im not dead yet..
Sorry, I am really trying to speak out loud
But.. I..I just cant…

Look there is the doctor passing by
Mom, I do wish you’ll let him know that he did try,
In fact mom, I think ..
I think yesterday I even saw him cry

I don’t know where Im about to go,
When I leave this life
My dreams are all fading away before my eyes
Mom.. this pain is like being stabbed with hundred thousand knives

Mom can you tell my daddy
Tell him that I really wont be that far
How I regret making him angry , whenever I used to stay late at some bar.

And my brothers and sisters mommy I love them so much
Tell them to be brave
And when life gets hard for them
Mommy do let them know they can still visit me on my grave

On my grave mom, I want you to write about my friends
How much I love them and think they were the best
If I leave without saying goodbye
Let them know Ill be watching from heaven when I die

Why me mommy?
I really don’t want to go
I want live my dreams
There is so much more about life I d like to know

You know what doesn’t seem fair mom?
That there are so many people who take their lives for granted
Alcoholics and Drug addicts, do they now its not right??
And those people who wish to die…I m dieing but how I wish I could stay alive.

Oh mom! I don’t know what more to say
I am scared because I don’t know whats on my way
Im dieing and im so unprepared

Im trying to be strong
Im trying hard not to let tears fall
But you’re breaking my heart mommy
Seeing you cry and all

I wish you could be happy and that I didnt have to make you this sad
I wish my boyfriend to hold me as I lay here and die
I want to let him know I love him
But I’d hate to see him cry

You know what I really wish mom
That you heard all these words as Im fading away
I love you mom…
Cry no more..Maybe I will see you again someday

- Ness

Life is too unpredictable to take forgranted

Well, this is not going to be a happy post...

I was just on FB when a page popped up on my wall " In the loving memory of Christine Catania"

http://www.facebook.com/#!/pages/In-loving-memory-of-christine-catania/238413409511216

Apparently she had just turned 21 and died after battling some illness in just 2 weeks.
Her boyfriend keeps leaving messages on her wall talking to her, hoping to get comfort. He even mentioned his mom is dieing aswell.

Honestly this really brought tears to my eyes. Life is so not fair. maybe life is.. but death certainly is not. I like to think everything happens for a reason. who am i kidding??? what reason could there possibly be to overcome the heart breaking shock for this young man of losing his loved one and his mom in a month.

I do not know him at all but I do feel very very sorry for him. I hope he will find happiness once again in time.

[ RIP CHRISTINE ]

Life is crazy and life is so simple if we could only learn to live it . I for one am doing such a bad job. I spend to much time being unhappy when I can be smiling. because nothing half as bad as what this guy is going through is happening to me.

Wouldnt it be nice if we could all just learn to start everyday with a smile and aim to keep that smile.

Like we all make so many decisions throughout our life , we should make one major decision for us. I think we should all chose to be HAPPY .

Because Happiness is a choice